The Results of my Growth in 2019

This year I am determined to push myself as far as I can. Out of my comfort zone, out of my own head. I no longer want to stay around what is familiar or follow my "usual daily routines." I want to incorporate little changes each and every day and I no longer want to have room for any negative self talk. No more reflecting and journaling about wanting to feel exhilarated or wanting a drastic change or experience. I will remain mindful that that is what I want, but I will put more energy towards focusing on what it is that I can do to get close to the things I desire.

I believe that I have all the tools and everything that I need inside of me to fetch for the things that I want, the experiences I want to indulge myself in and the great changes that I want to feel. I feel like I'm standing in a portal and that everything is waiting me on the other side. I'm reaching my hand out and I feel so close. I feel like after all of my personal training (self discipline, reflections, mediations, self care, positive self talk, planning for the future, warrior spirit), all of my internal battles and all of the distractions that would get in my way, I feel like I'm ready. It feels like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff looking down at a beautiful enchanted world and all I need to do to get down there is to finally spread my wings and fly. I can do this. I'm more alive than I've ever felt. It blows my mind to even know that this is just the beginning.

I've created all of my blue prints. Now it's time to build.

Raw journal entry

Written December 29, 2019, 10:33am