Feeling Lost? Overwhelmed? Are you Stuck? I can Relate.

Whenever I would get in this state here's what runs through my mind:

WHAT WILL IT TAKE TO BREAK AWAY FROM

- Blockages

-Tiredness

- Laziness

- Procrastination

- No motivation

- Overthinking

- Feeling stiff

- Thinking but not speaking

I feel paralyzed. I feel trapped inside of my own self. I have all of these solutions and alternatives surrounding me; that could lead me into the right directions. But what I need is Energy. Where do I get it?! Where can I consume and marinate myself in this purely good, radiating ENERGY??? I WANT TO SOAK IT ALL UP. I WANT TO SEE IT, I WANT TO FEEL IT, I WANT TO TASTE IT, I WANT TO SMELL IT, I WANT TO HEAR IT.

Do I find it in books? Podcasts? Mediating? Reflecting? From others?

Everyone tells you change starts with you. Okay I get that. But then again it doesn't make sense to make it myself because does this rule not apply to what I'm trying to get at?

"Energy supposedly cannot be created or destroyed..."

But it comes from somewhere! I just need to figure out where and how to get my supply. I feel like I've tried just about everything I could think of to obtain it. I've done so much thinking and reflecting. Or have I not done enough? If so, what am I missing?

WHAT AM I NOT DOING?... or is that just it...

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Written November 23, 2019, 3:15pm